Screaming Inside

I hate hate hate how I try to trust but is had….. Because when I do I don’t get the same reaction …. I may trust but they don’t trust back… You know what is like to have my private personal things under lock and key…. You know what is like to have your parents not trust you …. Have them check your emails Facebook  ect… And even worst total lock down I can’t go anywhere if they don’t go.. Is so horrible and I don’t even know why?  I know they want to protect me but this; this is going overboard….. I try to tell them when they ask but when I do they don’t even lessen is like I’m talking to a wall.  They even try to choose my friends but thank god I don’t let them …. If I did…… I love them and all but I get tired of them but for know I will have to scream inside…

Just Trust ( Inside tha bubble )

Have you ever felt like your parents don’t trust you? Well if you haven’t well I can tell you some stories of mines because me, I feel like that all the time…. Why because my parents are the most controlled freaks in rising kids history. I always hear stories about parents giving their kids freedom in other words letting them hangout with friends alone and go to parties.  Actually trusting their kids and how they raised them. But with me no Yeah I have heard of it but never actually seen it, or more specifically my parents trusting me. Why do I say this jajaja it kind of funny my mom always tells me stories that she hears or they tell her like one that I think is like her favorite to give an example or for me an excuse for why she doesn’t trust me…..  Well the story starts with this girl that her mom let her go to the movies and the girl went with her friends  and acted like she was in the movies but she actually went to parties and got drunk and had sex AND GUESS WHAT? She got pregnant……. After that my mom goes on and says that she does not want that to happen to me and that is why she is always going to keep an eye on me. I get mad because hell I am not that type of girl and she needs to let me out of this freaking bubble and trusting me …..   I hate it….. I am me Not that girl you have to trust how you raised me …… Let me out of  the freaking  bubble because one day I am going to get tired  AND…… BOP!!! Uups I warned you if you didn’t let me I was going to find my way out…. I wish it was that easy..... J